the same words ringing over and over___________________________
"lapping up"___________________________________________________
"the last stroke"______________________________________________
"a train sounds, in the distance there's a train"______________
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the panopticon of char blackened knights_______________________
boys in ruin___________________________________________________
unfulfilled quests_____________________________________________
train in the distance__________________________________________
______theres a train in the distance___________________________
____________and in the distance, you can hear a train__________
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its becoming an allusion of violence for you,__________________
not that you've ever needed illusions to think about violence__
and not that you've ever needed violence to think of you_______
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but it raises the back of its hand without so much as a warning
__________________________"and you recoil"_____________________
_______________________________________________________________
as if hit______________________________________________________
from behind____________________________________________________
_____as if you know what it feels like_________________________
_______________in a thousand different ways,___________________
__________________________in a thousand different lifetimes____
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circled by a lack of love,_____________________________________
one grows a ball of char_______________________________________
right in the centre of centres_________________________________
and, in entering the panopticon of char blackened knights______
its becoming an allusion of violence for you___________________
not that you've ever needed illusions to think of violence_____
and not that you've ever needed violence to think of you_______
_______________________________________________________________
its always more comfortable than you'd like to admit.__________
_______________________________________________________________
a thick cylinder of names sits at the corner of the desk_______
you imagine yourself in its centre_____________________________
everyone you know, or you've ever brought to orgasm,___________
________________or youve ever had a business meeting with______
________________________________watching.______________________
their hands bound together in a circle,________________________
each opening their eyes for only a second,_____________________
_______________________________________________________________
flipping through each letter you think_________________________
i dont think ive felt the back of his hand in a long time______
maybe__________________________________________________________
_________he's just as willing as he was before_________________
__________________maybe he'd hate to hear from me______________
______________just as much as i'd hate to call him_____________
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_____________________back to flipping__________________________
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theres too many names to count,________________________________
each watching you for only a second____________________________
swirling under your touch,_____________________________________
under your delicate touch______________________________________
they're looking in through your windows________________________
they're all just a press of a button away______________________
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and when you want it bad enough________________________________
___and when you get in_________________________________________
______and when you have to give it up__________________________
__________and when you have to take your chances_______________
__will you hear the train when it comes?_______________________
and will you catch it?_________________________________________
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a train in the distance________________________________________
theres a train in the distance_________________________________
and in the distance, you can hear a train______________________